Time lapse...

Have many of you had this happen? You sit down, or stop for a few seconds of thought, and come to much much later? I wish I knew what I was on. Sounds like it'd be fun, and I'm sure I could make a buck or two.

Anytime I think of selling, the System of A Down song called "She's Like Heroin". A bit off my story though. I'm thinking about these time lapses, and allot of wonder comes to mind. Am I even thinking, or do I have a problem?

The whole problem gets me a bit worried. Time lapses usually indicate some kind of mental health problem, or even cancer. I go off into thought about what kind of mental problems it could be, and even the types of cancer.

I'm not a big medical person, so that's relatively short lived. Long enough for 5 minutes to go by without me noticing. Huh, I must be thinking pretty hard then. I wonder if I can do this on command...

Think brain think...
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For what seems like forever, nothing happens. Sadly, only 30 seconds go by. So that didn't work out to well. How can you think on command? Usually you need some kind of stimulus, or at least a reason. Thinking to think just cut it.

It's like thinking about thinking about doing something. You know it'll never happen. That's the procrastinators excuse. I was thinking about thinking about it getting done. Sounds nice, but sadly no actions will ever come. Back on the thinking thing. What about I pretend to study...

Study...
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This one really seems to take forever, but it's only like 10 seconds. Okay, I don't quite have the study thing down. Actually, do I even know how to study? I can read for days with no sleep, even the driest of dry computer manuals. Don't even need a picture to wash it all down with. Just some lines of code will do. Ah, more text. Words on top of words, page after page.

And I just got a great startle shaking me out of my thinking and typing trance. My cd ejected into my arm. Got my pulse going. Thanks little plastic and lead laptop. Almost gave me a heart attack. That'd be the way to go. Weak heart, got scared of his laptop. Finished him off.

Continuing where I left off, wanting to think about something can be hard at times. Especially when your trying to track how long it takes. Seems like the time slows down. And that provokes a great thought.

Mentally altering time... Not really, but altering our perception of time.. Isn't that like a speed boost of the brain, or maybe a reduction in speed? I know adrenaline can do that. Speed up your reactions, thoughts and nerves to near superhuman speeds. Adrenaline from thought?

Ha, even the dorkiest of us wouldn't think that. I once read this book called Society Of Mind. Minsky compares the human mind to a computer program. Somehow I don't think he's too far off. The busier we become, the less we notice other things. Just like a processor, the higher the task priority, the less it's interrupted, and can even lock up stuck in a loop or just pushing too many electrons as 1's and 0's through.

Maybe that's what happens to me. I get stuck in a loop. 7 plus 9...

7+9
9+7
9 7
9 7
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What was I thinking about? Ah, that's right, 7+9
and it starts over again.
And over again.
And again.
Driving me mad I can't get this simple problem. A problem becoming increasingly hard from frustration. Soon I'm off in my trance again...
7+9

16. Okay, got it. lucky that wasn't 7+6...
Damn.
I'm not even going there.
7+6
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Calculator comes out, and it's 13.
Feeling much better than I'm not mentally ill, I have a different problem now. How can I be so bad at math? That problem quickly goes away from my excitement of discovering people can get stuck in loops. If it happens to the best (me), it happens to everyone.

And that's all to that story. True in some areas, a bit exaggerated in others. I'll let you decide, just don't get stuck on it...